I Feel So Stupid

i got caught trying to kill myself today by my best friend
she asked why well because i love this guy so much i cant even breath without him and it sux so much because he doesnt love me back he used to but i did something and now he doesnt
so she promised not to tell anyone but idc
for some reason no matter how hard i try i cant move on
i just posted a bunch of songs and most of them reminded me of him idk if it went through lol
but anyway idk why im posting this but i am i guess because i only feel safe on the internet which is bad because the internet is really dangerous im half asleep sssooo....... im really depressed and really bored and all i can think about is these 3 ppl and all three of them has an acc on here = / oh well fuck it imma live apparently ppl are gonna make me live anyway ppl are so cruel why do i have to live with the pain i just want him as mine
i never loved anyone b4 i met him after that i started falling inlove with all kinds of different ppl but i still dont love anyone as much as i loved him im done saying i love you im done trying to be happy like i was itll never happen i hate ppl and they hate me doesnt mean imma be acting any different tho

i had a experence. fell for a girl with a boyfriend already. yeah tried to impress her and broke my heart. that was more than a year and it still hurts. also i know what it is like to lose family to death. my coping process; don't let any emotions overwhelm me and make light of bad situations. if you ever need someone to talk to; i'm here

thx dagger but i dont really know you and i dont like the idea of talking to someone i dont know i hate ppl as it is

okay